Anyone who has followed my Inappropriate Crushes column knows that I tend to follow a pattern. Most of the men I’ve crushed on are old enough to be my father or perhaps they aren’t considered conventionally attractive. Or both. Aaron Tveit (that’s Tuh-vate, if you’re wondering) is neither of these things. He’s totally in my dating age range and he has classic leading-man looks. So what makes this crush inappropriate? It’s taking over my whole life.

First, some background info. For those of you asking yourselves “Who is Aaron Tveit?” I’m here to tell you all about this beautiful angel. You might recognize Aaron from his star turn as Enjolras, the young leader of the revolutionary students, in the recent film version of Les Miserables. More recently you may have seen him on the small screen as FBI agent Mike Warren in the new hit drama Graceland. It’s already been renewed for a second season because everything Aaron Tveit touches turns to gold.

But Aaron actually got his start on Broadway. He’s had starring roles in Wicked, Rent, Next to Normal and the stage version of Catch Me If You Can. That’s right, this boy is a triple threat who can act, sing and dance, LADIES. As if that weren’t enough, he’s also incredibly athletic. Aaron spent all summer playing baseball with his Broadway co-stars (cause apparently that’s a thing in New York City) and recently pictures circulated of him competing in a Tough Mudder, a ridiculously hard obstacle course designed by the British Special Forces. Looks, talent, stamina…is there anything this man doesn’t have?

It’s not hard to see why he’s taken over my life. The obsession started off small. First I googled him. Then I checked out his IMDB page to see if I might have caught him in any other roles. I watched the entire film version of Howl just so I could see him make out with James Franco for thirty seconds. And what else did I find? Oh, that’s right, he was a guest star in TEN WHOLE EPISODES of Gossip Girl! The only appropriate reaction to this knowledge was to queue up Netflix and watch all ten episodes of the best worst show on television.

It was only downhill from there. Despite his fandom being filled with wide-eyed 16 year-old girls who write weird Enjolras/Grantaire fan fiction, I still find myself regularly searching the Aaron Tveit tag on Tumblr. And while I once enjoyed listening to cuts from his new live album while at work, I finally had to stop when I realized I couldn’t wipe the goofy smile off my face as I listened to Aaron singing “Run Away With Me.” Oh Aaron, you know I would if I could.

And that’s why this is a completely inappropriate crush. Because scrolling through pictures of Aaron on my iPhone is not an appropriate way to kill time when I’m waiting for someone. And I definitely shouldn’t feel the need to watch every interview he’s done with Broadway.com ever. And I probably shouldn’t be reblogging gifs of him on my own personal Tumblr. But I can and I have and I’ll do it again, no matter how inappropriate it gets.